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December 2014

by Matt Sams

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December 03:47
The year is crawling to a close and I'll remember it well My troubles falling with the snow, we'll see it's just as well Though it's a cold December, we knew it from the start Though it's cold outside, there's still warmth in our hearts Though this year was good, I promise the next one will be better And I swear that I would, do everything to make it better Though this year is over, I won't be afraid Why can't we start over without the games we play Please stay here with me, wrapped up in my heart And please believe me when I say I need you more than ever
2.
I don't want to fight about the way I have to be After all I tried to learn what you want to see I don't have the time to go out of my mind I just have to live by any light I find Ask any question that comes to your mind All of the pain felt blurs all the lines I don't have the time to go out of my mind I just have to live by any light I find If there's no hello, is there still a goodbye? I don't have the time to go out of my mind I just have to live by any light I find
3.
There's a bad omen in the air, I can see it in the way you stare There's a cause and effect in me, It is fueled by everyone I see I won't open up my eyes to this deadly deal All my reasons make sense as I try to heal There's a point where everything breaks, I can only hope for what it takes There's a chill stabbing through my bones, It is fueled by silent telephones I won't open up my eyes to this deadly deal All my reasons make sense as I try to heal I won't open up my eyes to this deadly deal All my reasons make sense as I try to heal
4.
Deluge 03:09
Overreacting to ghosts that never were There is no reason I can be sure The heavens open up around this wounded word A deluge of my words of regret never heard here I can be alive or I can be happy, I can't have it both ways I can list the ways I try to misbehave, but I'm left with nothing to say I don't know why I push until it breaks, I go out of my mind There's never a choice to make to save some heartbreak Life just won't rewind The heavens open up around this wounded word A deluge of my words of regret never heard here I can't say where I'll let it end I'll forgive it all in the wind The heavens open up around this wounded word A deluge of my words of regret never heard here
5.
Making Masks 02:38
What do you see when you're digging up the dirt What makes you feel right when all you bring is hurt True enough I'm satisfied hiding from the world Making masks I want to wear to show you what I hold How is a dream any concern, why should I open my mouth I want to scream at decibels unheard by modern man True enough I'm satisfied hiding from the world Making masks I want to wear to show you what I hold I'm untrue, I'm untied, I'm overwhelmed, I'm over-tired True enough I'm satisfied hiding from the world Making masks I want to wear to show you what I hold
6.
I believe it's time to see my way home It's only getting later, it's time to find the road It's been fun listening to the wind But even the happiest times must come to an end All these broken clocks and lying mirrors Conspire to keep me unaware Of how ugly life is and the time that's running out I won't fight for things I can do without It's been fun listening to the wind But even the happiest times must come to an end Are we dying here, Are we really clear about this It's been fun listening to the wind But even the happiest times must come to an end I believe it's time to wander on There are tears somewhere in these footsteps
7.
Mesmerized 03:49
The shade slowly covers me In a light that only I can see I'm mesmerized, comforting a world unseen All I can ask for is to float away A word of life spoken while sleeping I'm in chains of tears Weeping through forgotten years It's not a lie when I die inside Make a fire to cleanse this mind The wounds may heal given the time I'm mesmerized, pretending I've learned what it means All I can ask for is to live a dream Nothing seems to make up my mind for me It's all we can ask for, All we're meant to be A version of who we want to be All I can ask for is to live a dream Nothing seems to make up my mind for me
8.
Imagine That 03:41
All he asked for was peace, imagine that, they shot him dead He said all we need is some love, imagine that, they shot him down Are we hopeless dreamers, or are we on the right road home He was not the only one, imagine that, he took a chance He was only a man, imagine that, he took a stand Are we hopeless dreamers, or are we on the right road home He said live for today, imagine that, they shot him dead He had something to say, imagine that, they shot him down Are we hopeless dreamers, or are we on the right road home
9.
There aren't any red pills left to take I know there are still many rules to break Do they walk among us, can we see their faces Do they speak their spells in hidden places There aren't any jealous hearts left for me to break I know the walls are painted with scenes all too fake Do I trust the magic or see through the wires Is it any wonder this world conspires There are no more illusions, just ones we make ourselves I know I left the door ajar, waking from a hell Do I ask the questions no one cares to hear I know I'm acting out of love to chase away the fear
10.
Anchor 03:19
Anger is my anchor as I try to swim When I should be floating, I keep sinking in When I meet my maker, I'll find out where I've been I should be counting blessings, but I'm only counting sins Is this pain futile, or can I learn from this All the lies are subtle, a dagger with a kiss I should be better at seeing things I always miss I should want freedom, but I've been caged in bliss All my life I had to try, I never did find out why I shot right through the ceiling when I thought it was gone I couldn't change the feelings, I couldn't just play along I should find an answer, somewhere in the songs Will only hear silence, when the final curtain's drawn All my life I had to try, I never did find out why Sorrow is a chain that forces me to stay I'll never be an angel, but I'll still fly away I can't fight the dawning of another day But I can make a choice, if I want to stay
11.
Left Behind 03:35
I spend all my time buried in names The souls that I have loved, I've hurt all the same I don't know why I've been wrong I don't know why I can't play along I've spent all my life, unfit for this world I've spent all this time, looking for pearls I have have been an empty fool I have seen all the proof I'm over the line, I go out of my mind When I'm always left behind by the love I've found I could have just been a ghost I could have ignored what I love the most I don't know why I lose my mind I don't know why it leaves me haunted I'm over the line, I go out of my mind When I'm always left behind by the love I've found I'm over the line, I go out of my mind When I'm always left behind by the love I've found I wish that I had just closed my mouth I wish that I had some time to figure it out
12.
I fought the lessons you tried to reach me with I called your name, cursing all my gifts I'm looking for answers to why you cut me down Is there any love left here to be found It'd be good to see that face again It's been living in rivers and rain I've been down, tracing rings around my head There's no innocence in an empty bed It'd be good to feel something again I've been cast in stone in rivers and rain All these feelings so hard to explain All my pain is washed away in rivers and rain
13.
I Just Want 03:05
I've been strong enough to be happy alone But I try so hard to fall to pieces on my own I just want to feel like the love won't die I just want to feel like I'm really alive I can't give up on trying to fly I can't help but wonder if it was a lie I just want to feel like something is true I just want to feel like I know what to do I've been strong enough to whisper loss But I try so hard to hide from the cost I just want to feel like I mean anything I just want to feel like I still matter All these thoughts won't fade away I'm reliving what I always say I just want to feel like I mean anything I just want to feel like I still matter
14.
I decided to take my wife to the theater I put my best top hat on I didn't know what I would meet there I didn't know what could go wrong And then Someone shot me in the head, they shot me in the head They shot me in the head, they shot me in the head Now I'm dead cuz they shot me in the head I took a trip on down to Dallas The sun was out the top was down I didn't know there was such malice As I smiled and waved at the crowd And then Someone shot me in the head, they shot me in the head They shot me in the head, they shot me in the head Now I'm dead cuz they shot me in the head I was sitting on the banks of the river My best friend George was telling me about the rabbits again I didn't know the dogs were closing in I didn't realize that I had sinned And then Someone shot me in the head, they shot me in the head They shot me in the head, they shot me in the head Now I'm dead cuz they shot me in the head Someone shot me in the head, they shot me in the head They shot me in the head, they shot me in the head Now I'm dead cuz they shot me in the head
15.
Flying High 03:39
As I stagger through another wounded day I try to remember what I tried to say All the world around, they can watch me burn down I've spent some time flying high Feeling all the love in my life But it's a long way down and I always hit the ground hard I never make the time to make amends To all those screaming voices in my head I can't make excuses for always dragging through this I've spent some time flying high Feeling all the love in my life But it's a long way down and I always hit the ground hard I can't forget the things I thought were true I've been lost in empty thoughts, not knowing what to do I don't know what to change and what to keep the same All the world around, they can watch me burn down I've spent some time flying high Feeling all the love in my life But it's a long way down and I always hit the ground hard
16.
What I See 03:16
Share a song and spend some time with me It won't be long until you see what I can be You'll see what I see Chances are I'll trip and fall, but I can be a friend If you choose to walk with me, I'll stay til the end Of this world Share a song and spend some time with me It won't be long until you see what I can be You'll see what I see I'll try to bring a smiling face to chase away your blues If I fail I'll make it up to you if it's the last thing I ever do In this world Share a song and spend some time with me It won't be long until you see what I can be You'll see what I see I may be wrong, but I don't have to tell you In the same old songs I try to sell you But please, see what I see Share a song and spend some time with me It won't be long until you see what I can be You'll see what I see
17.
I wallowed in the anarchy of my restless life I couldn't make the pieces work to get me through the night I have bought sorrow with the pennies of my heart When I feel the walls close in on my life I'm thankful for the love I see hiding in your eyes I try to count the consequences I could do without Ignoring all the sympathies I've been bleeding out I have bought anger with the silver of my tongue When I feel the walls close in on my life I'm thankful for the love I see hiding in your eyes Don't go numb, I'm not gone, I'm not gone With thunder ringing in my ears, I betray the loss I've stolen chances all my years, breathing in the cause I have bought forgiveness with the gold in my tears
18.
Do I try to make it right, or did I fail the night Or is this all that's left Am I going through a trial, or am I unaware Or is this all that's left Is there any love to be found, or am I sinking in the ground Or is this all that's left Am I walking into bliss, or am I walking into darkness Or is this all that's left Should I try to make amends, or curse myself to the bitter end Or is this all that's left Am I walking into bliss, or am I a ghost now
19.
I've been a beggar and I've been a chooser And I've been a blinded fool I've been a faker and I've been a taker I've pretended like I was cool But I'm different now I've been a winner and I've been a loser I've agreed to disagree I've moved along and I've stayed where I was I've let the world get to me But I'm different now All my life mistakes have been made But I realize, it's what I save that matters I've been a liar and I've told the truth I've spoken my mind without any proof I've been a heart breaker, and have had my heart broken I know what it's like to be hurt But I'm different now I've been a grown up, and I've been a child I've seen my fair share of abuse I've been a lover and I've been a fighter I've been left with nothing to lose But I'm different now All my life mistakes were made But I realize, it's what I save that matters Close your eyes to my world, I won't suffer Close your eyes to this love if you must Say goodbye to me, I won't suffer Say goodbye if you must, I'll still be here I've been awake and I've been so tired I've screamed in rage at the wind I've stolen my vices and I've sold all my virtues But what will it mean in the end Am I different at all
20.
The divine struggles somewhere in between The hope of dying and fearing the unseen The poison escapes the veins of bigger men Underneath the devils refusing to sin Each wind struggles to blow down my heart I'm carried under a day that never starts The constraint reveals a paralyzed man Always talking backwards, faking the stand An amber redemption fails to make its point Infantile delusions will always disappoint Each wind struggles to blow down my heart I'm carried under a day that never starts The corpse slides beneath a disaster I tried to let you in, I tried to let you know Each wind struggles to blow down my heart I'm carried under a day that never starts
21.
Unforgiven 03:10
I was always willing to blind my eyes to all the hurt you brought to me, but I see I'm the villian now in your eyes, and mistakes I've made go unforgiven I am always willing to share a smile, I am still filled with love, but I see I'm the villian now in your eyes, and mistakes I've made go unforgiven I'm still here if you want to see, I've been here all my life, but I see I'm the villian now in your eyes, and mistakes I've made go unforgiven I'm the villian now in your eyes, and mistakes I've made go unforgiven
22.
All I wanted to chase down shadows hiding in the sky It's in my face now, I won't say why Final nails are driven from my world Twice a lifetime is twice too much All I had was given by the swirling wind All that I've forgiven never was a sin Final nails are driven from my world Twice a lifetime is twice too much Try to recognize the madness before it tears me down I've betrayed the difference made Final nails are driven from my world Twice a lifetime is twice too much
23.
I Can't Run 03:02
As this time is winding down, I can force the issue with this sound As this same old wound is acting up, I can force a smile without giving up There's no need to grieve as I burn it down It's too late to cry about this fate when I can't run While I thought I knew what I meant, I still wasted all the time I spent I've wasted kisses on your lips, I'm buried in a heart that slips There's no need to grieve as I burn it down It's too late to cry about this fate when I can't run I can forgive all the pain I can live another life But I can't run away There's no need to grieve as I burn it down It's too late to cry about this fate when I can't run
24.
I was out of step, or so I believed I can feel the innocence washing over me I want the picture to fit the words I was on the loose, with a dagger in my heart I can't say I'd do it all the same again I just want to be on your side I'll strip away the feelings to see just what I am But I can't strip away what it means to me I'll walk in circles I was checking out, the world was just too much I can try to work out all my sins I want the words to mean something I'll strip away the feelings to see just what I am But I can't strip away what it means to me I'll walk in circles Take the time to recognize these words I am all out of diamonds and pearls But I still can give you something to sing I'll strip away the feelings to see just what I am But I can't strip away what it means to me I'll walk in circles I'll walk in circles and meet you there
25.
Thank you, thank you for being here You came around when I needed a friend And I'm so happy you stuck around Bless you, bless your open heart You let me in, when I needed shelter from this world And I know I'm never in the cold So many days I've been alone Dreaming of the love I've known But not in my wildest dreams did I know I tell you, I tell you what I need You're always here when I need someone to believe And I know you'll never go away So many days I've been alone Dreaming of the love I've known But not in my wildest dreams did I know I may miss the meaning in my soul I may never let it go But I'm still happy in my heart Thank you, thank you for being here
26.
I can take one look at you and see why you survive You're stern as steel but there is fire hiding in your eyes There's something about you that I've got to get to know I want to hear every note you've ever sung and I want you to mean it I can take a cue from you and make sense of this life I'll take a page to turn the rage into something I might like There's one thing I want to tell you if I can I want to read every word you've ever written in chronological order Take the time to read these eyes And we won't ever have to say goodbye again I can't tell you what it all meant to me I recognize the cloudy skies when I want to see There's still something I'm hoping for I want to hear every note you've ever sung and I want you to mean it
27.
We run aground dreaming underwater What have I found when my shaky steps falter I can use some faith to get through the day Where will I go when I could use a friend What will I get when I make it to the end I hear the sound carried on the airwaves It breaks me down when I don't know what's to blame I can use some time to raise the questions Where will I go when I could use a friend What will I get when I make it to the end I've been changing lies in my point of view I've been chasing time to find out what to do I close my eyes facing eternity I say goodbye to living life unknown I can use another choice to get through another day
28.
All the cards you hold in your hands I'm betting on all the faith I had I'll forget the passions that I held so dear I'll renounce the vows made on your deaf ears Don't you ever wonder what it all meant Do you even care where it went I'll forget the passions that I held so dear I'll renounce the vows made on your deaf ears I'll forget the passions that I held so dear I'll renounce the vows made on your deaf ears
29.
I just can't go on thinking about days that have to end I don't want to see the world, I still want to pretend I don't ever want to stop kissing you Unless I'm kissing you goodbye I don't ever want to say goodbye to your smiling face I've been spending too much time running in place I don't ever want to stop kissing you Unless I'm kissing you goodbye I don't want to dream about dreams I may lose I don't want to waste my time wondering what to do I just want to say hello and never let you go I don't want to fret about how to let you know I don't ever want to stop kissing you Unless I'm kissing you goodbye
30.
Why look away from this crumbling disaster We can watch it burn in its glory We will never know where it will go next Even though the world is over, it's not the end of the world When I think things over, I haven't got a care in the world So much for my excuses, tripping over my tongue I don't know what to remember, I don't know what I was thinking of I guess I'll never know, how low I can go from here Even though the world is over, it's not the end of the world When I think things over, I haven't got a care in the world Why force a smile when i can't care anymore Living in denial, stranded on the shore Why should I care any more I'm stabbing blindly at shots in the dark I'm failing loudly every chance I get I will never know where I might go again Even though the world is over, it's not the end of the world When I think things over, I haven't got a care in the world
31.
The End 05:17
To taste the pain of this world you hold so dear What is to gain by hiding all your fear I hear your voice calling out to me To comfort me and give me what I need And your life can change, but you'll still feel the same As you ever were, you never change Double negatives of your hearts desire What meaning gives to set your soul on fire I hear your voice echoing in my mind You've made your choice, now go see what you find And you laugh at me, when I say you need Someone else to bleed for you Is this the end? Is this the end, or just the beginning of another chapter in our lives? Is this the end? Is this the end, or just the beginning of another chapter in our lives?

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released December 1, 2014

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Matt Sams is a singer/songwriter and producer from the Chicago area. He has been performing music and writing songs for over twenty years. Influenced by classic and alternative rock bands like: The Who, The Beatles, Rolling Stones, Nirvana, Smashing Pumpkins and Big Country.

Matt has written and recorded over 800 songs and continues to create every day.
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